translating power

i am learning to accept what it means to be human, what it means to be me, what it means to exist in this body and this mind, this heart, and this soul.

with that comes pain, and grief. pain for the difficulties of being, “me”. grieving the aspects of myself that i am learning to accept, and love, even when it feels hard to do so. grieving through the painful process / shadows of being misunderstood, hyper self-aware, a hopeless romantic, idealistic, feeling like 20 different people that exist in one body, a ‘chameleon’ if you will. letting go of the idea that i have to fit in perfectly in a group / a community . . . learning to let go of that longing or desire to fit in and be understood by everyone or letting go of the hope that one perfect soul will cross my paths and ‘finally’ i’ll be able to open up and truly be myself . . . no , because that means i am making myself small to make others comfortable , and i am no longer subscribing to that notion. i open myself up , i embody my spirit FULLY , i am embracing what it feels like to make others uncomfortable for simply being MYSELF . i open myself up and i disagree , i don’t always understand the other , but i make space for it anyway and i find beauty in the beautiful imperfect / opposite friendships. i open myself up and i allow love and nuance and new ideas and friendships and lovers to come in and be a mirror , a teacher , and sometimes a painful trigger . opening ourselves up in these ways means beauty and shadow and light and darkness are all coming in - - -

i am understanding that i am multi-faceted , complex and dimensional - - - i make waves and am fluid and am ever - changing. and with this grief comes recognition , recognition of power and light and fluidity and passion , and love.

i am learning to move through the insecurities i feel around having a strong voice , around having an undeniable feeling of love and passion for life and for people , for craving deep and delicate and dark intimacy . for having a multitude of friends and aesthetics and interests and feelings and even personalities . i am learning to accept these truths , and to embody them fully . to embody the feeling of POWER — of feeling POWERFUL.

translating our power that we feel — our pain , our love , our sadness , our complexity, intensity , mood swings , joy , peace , ecstasy into positive and nurturing experiences .

for me , i am learning to translate my power through art, communication, self-discovery, leadership, and intimacy.

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the full moon will be entering scorpio on may 7th , 2020.

the full moon is all about release ~ it will be a beautiful time to sit with intense emotions , delve into the depths of our psyche + souls , and release limiting thought patterns and behaviors, in order to translate our power into potency.

scorpio is the sign of power, sex, transformation, death, and rebirth. scorpio is ruled by the planet pluto which governs theses archetypes .

full moon in scorpio means releasing our old ways of feeling small and power-less, and inviting POTENCY , POWER , and TRANSFORMATION into our bodies , lives , and spirits ()

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magick ideas ᗤ a scorpio full moon ritual

setting the space △

you can sit by your altar , on a porch , in the grass under the full moon , in a dark forest , or by a window. wherever feels comfortable for you to be for an hour or so an examine the feelings that come up. you may want to set out some objects that feel sacred to you , and burn some incense , or light a candle.

visualization △

you can close your eyes , and think about the feeling of power . visualize with pointed focus , imagine the word, the feeling of power. pay attention to that energy. see if it appears on / in an area of your body. bring your attention to that energy. energy follows awareness.

journal practice / self-talk practice △

ᯣ questions to ask yourself on paper, or out loud. whatever resonates with you

where do you feel like you are translating your power in your life?

where do you feel powerless in your life?

how can you translate power into the areas of your life where you feel powerless?

what self limiting beliefs / patterns have you been holding onto?

ᯣ it may be helpful to write these down, along with a list of childhood wounds. this can help you see what areas of your life may be getting triggered or are repeating old patterns from childhood.

accept that there may be trauma, pain , and hurt present. 

ᯣ hold yourself lovingly. if you can be naked and rub your body, and whisper a mantra, that is wonderful. if not, say a mantra or a positive affirmation out loud to yourself as you rub your arms, hug yourself, or rub your legs, heart, etc. (whatever feels good to you — or maybe wherever you feel pain).

ᯣ you can end your practice by writing a spell to call in POWER, where ever you may need that power in your life. i write all of my spells in my book of shadows.

ᯣ use your intuition to make decisions and do what feels best for you. whenever we utilize our intuition, we allow it to go stronger inside of us.

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m m m m m m , thank you for spending some moments with me, ᯣ

and i hope this practice helps to heal you , and allows any pain to resurface so that you may move through it gracefully , and that you may accept your beauty , your rawness, you flaws , your authentic self.

♡