ushering in

in a time of flux, transition, great awakening, liberation, the brink of a new self — the birth of a new earth. 

ᚐ

flailing, spittering, and spattering out.

grasping for air. grasping for something tangible; for something in reach. 

wanting to feel instant gratification and reward for our small yet challenging efforts we have put forth.

ᚐ

feeling unsatisfied, feeling stuck. feeling so bound and yet so unhinged all the while. what’s holding me down is what is propelling me forward. steady movement. small steps. habits, steps, actions, adding up over time to push us forward. it all feels so far away, yet it feels so insurmountably close at the same time.

ᚐ

right under our noses here. 

ᚐ

some days i feel empty, a spilled bucket leaking out the last fragments of goodness onto whatever energetics i can muster for the day . 

ᚐ

oh , but what am i filling my time with i think ?

ᚐ

cut back the weeds in order to see what’s grown. sometimes there may be so much bare space after we cut the weeds, and we feel this immediate urgency to want to fill the barren land. 

ᚐ

but, that was the whole point of us cutting down the weeds in the first place, so we could see the beauty that has already taken place, and tend to the soil. 

ᚐ

so, instead, decide to plant seeds. plant a seed, water the soil, allow it to take root and watch it grow. 

show up for the small steps. the mundanity. the aliveness. the hard work. the flow. it’s all meant to be happening in the way it is supposed to. 

ᚐ

trust. 

trust in spirit. 

trust that this feeling of uncertainty, this crushing, rebirthing, and renewing of our earth, of cycles, of ushering in the next era — it is time. it is important and it is meant to be here, it is meant to all be happening now. we have to evolve. we are evolving. which may be why our insides feel so turned out , so upheavaled, maybe frantic, and hopeful and dismembered, but also embodied. 

ᚐ

and as we continue to explode and shatter this this current realm, this current paradigm of existence, may we remind ourselves that it involves picking up the pieces that once were and putting them back together. only this time, the puzzle is no longer the same. 

ᚐ

we are starting from scratch. and we all need time, patience, and trust in ourselves and in each other to re - structure this earth, our society, our lives and our communities. 

ᚐ

it is happening ,

one by one. 

things fall, things rise. 

ᚐ